While in the park, keeping my advice and energy healing booth open for several hours a day, I couldn’t help but notice, and even join in with the buskers periodically while they played and sang their music under the shade of the Basin park trees. I can do readings for others; providing helpful advice and some mental/emotional/physical relief to others, and I DO really enjoy serving in this way… However, I also really enjoy making music, because this also feeds my soul. I love vocalizing and have since I was very young, singing some of the popular songs back then for the family, and then for others, as I grew, every chance I’d get.
I recently began including song into my energy healing sessions with clients I meet at my home office. It really uplifts us both, and I am grateful. When I did this recently, it reminded me of an incident from July…
While I sat in the park on this comfortable July 20th day of 2014, a man, maybe in his 60′s, sat on the bench next to my booth. We began conversating and I learned that he was a music producer and musician in the Branson MO area where many celebrities go to perform. As we talked, I uninhibitedly let him know that if he hears of someone needing a good back up singer I would be interested in helping them, as I would love doing back up for some well known or not so well known vocalists! He asked to hear some of my recordings, so I connected him with my youtube videos of me singing. He expressed his favorable opinion of my singing voice and said if he hears of anything he would give me a call.
Okay, so I felt good knowing that I had actually started putting it out there that this is something I would like to do. Good job! But then…wooooa! This gentleman then calls me later that evening, while I am having some quality time with my family at the dinner table. He leaves a very interesting message since I was unable to answer at that time. I was flabbergasted! He immediately began calling me “sweety” and told me that he did not know if I was wanting to do this or not, but he thinks I should start hanging out with him at the “candy store”! He said; “later for back up singing, as I think you would be a good solo singer”… and he knows how to get me there – so that is why I needed to hang out with him in his candy store(s)! (So, essentially he was saying: Do you want to sing bad enough? If so, come hang out in my candy store… I’ll be your ‘sweet’ daddy!)
While this is very flattering, the fact is I am not really after fame (but fortune ?, well yes, I could use a lot of that!! smile ). I am wanting to use my voice again to help uplift people’s spirit, and even to just help another being who is singing for similar reasons and needs a back up singer. That is why I inquired about and explained to him I was mainly interested in back up singing for someone. Anyways, I sent a text saying thanks but no thanks, as I had no time to hang out in his candy store. He left a few more text messages until my non-response told him I was not interested in going DOWN that path. Especially since he immediately started romanticising and said he knew we were meant to be together. I did not see it that way or feel it, so it was not happening. Sorry.
So, I shall continue on as usual, until some opportunity comes along that is more in alignment with what my life journey and path is about. One lesson I learned is that I should continue to put my feelers out in the areas that I personally resonate with; such as world peace movements, alternative lifestyle, spirituality, good old fashioned or modern music in a healthy environment; etc., not one setting you up to sell your body and soul to the nearest ‘candy store’ for the sake of you getting a little worldy fame.
And besides that, to me, the highest recognition we can receive comes from our own efforts and good works; like being a Peace Pilgrim or the like. And saints often do not get recognized until after they leave, and that’s okay too. The main objective is for all of us to do as much good in the world that we can; making peoples lives a little better. When you are on a path of rightly using the will, your heart will sink and hide from activities that drain on your dignity and sense of morality. I understand that it is not like this for everyone, but my heart cries for the young women and men that get caught up into this trap for the sake of worldly fame and glamour, and I would say without any doubt this was leading to such an exhaustive and compromising experience.
I would love to continue serving in all areas I can; doing some good here and there, and if that may one day includes me being able to bring more joy in peoples lives through my vocal skills as well, on a larger scale, in a positive and profound way like now, I will be delighted. So I think I passed my test (which was not difficult for me at all!)… But still, Good Job Shakeenah!